un momento

you came out of nowhere, in an instant...and in an instant you left me, but this instant will forever be eternal in my heart.

-Carolina

tell me if you know where we are going (April edition)

Escribiendo, soltando mis penas. Otra vez llega la noche, llega la reflexión y me empiezo a confundir. Hoy hable con mi psiquiatra, le confesé que tengo pensamientos negativos en general y que ya no me siento feliz. Hace dos meses me rompieron el corazón, y me esta costando volver a la normalidad. Por primera vez en muchos años volví a dar y recibir cariño. Como las cosas buenas no suelen durar, y por que el destino quiso me siento sola otra vez. No quiero entrar en detalles con lo que paso, por que no vale la pena seguir volviendo a algo que en realidad nunca fue.

Empece a trabajar en The Bay, en medio del centro. Deje mi pasantia, y me tome un break del colegio. Me voy a enfocar en trabajar, en mi arte y en mi salud.

En una semana llega mi amigo de Abril... En este momento solo me deseo suerte. No se que puede llegar a pasar.

Be the bigger person

I don't write here much because I feel like I forgot how to. I didn't write an essay in years and I feel my skills are really bad right now. Also this blog is kind of secretive, people barely know I own this blog. I think I want to keep it that way.

I moved to Vancouver in May 2014. Its already August and a lot happened since I moved. I found amazing people that even tho they are still getting to know me, they really support me and listen to me . I like feeling like I'm not alone, but it still doesn't stop me from feeling lonely and missing my friends in Toronto, Argentina… and even Calgary now.  My sister is also very far from me, she is my best friend I miss her the most but I know she is living her life and I'm proud of her in every way. 

I started attending school, BCIT. Im studying graphic design and I really like it. I took three courses so far and I love it, I learned so much already I can't wait to see what I will be able to produce after I graduate in a couple years. 

Dance of the wolf

Another piece dedicated to the one and only Lillie Ze, she is one of my muses, I really miss her. Even when I didn't know her I looked up to her because she's a bad ass. I made this drawing with black pen and markers for the details. The original piece is in color, but I liked the black and white effect better.

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Life is confusing, I'm still looking for a place to call home. I've been moving in and out so much, I don't even know where I belong anymore. But in the other hand, I love travelling and there's so many other places I want to go. I'm just a walking paradox (yes, a Tyler line). I just need to keep my head up and make friends everywhere I go. 

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My Facebook page has 240 fans I'm so exited.

End of summer Acrylic paintings

Summer is coming to an end.  It has been a lovely summer, I have to say... A lot of good memories, but it’s time to get working now. I’m desperate for a job, so I can save up and maybe go to Argentina, or Toronto.

Tomorrow I start a non-credit course at ACAD (Alberta College of Art and Design). I will be studying Acrylic painting. It should be fun. To practise I did two paintings, on dollar store canvases. I love painting the people that are dear to me, In this case my sister and my best friend wifey !. Ill be posting more things soon time! :) cheers

Open Your Eyes And Look North

It's been a year since I made a post on my blog. A lot has changed and I guess I can say: for the better. To start off, let’s talk a little bit about my mental illness. In the previous post I confessed that I got discharged from the hospital. A year has passed since that happened, and luckily my health improved. I didn’t get another psychotic episode. I’m taking medications: Lithium, Olanzapine, and birth control pills. My environment, my friends and family helped me to stay positive. I also have to thank my psychiatrist and occupational therapist.

As I said, a lot has changed... I currently live in Calgary, Alberta. We moved a week ago. We are settling in and getting to know the city. I personally miss Toronto A LOT, because of my friends and because I grew very fond to the busy city life. I want to work my ass off and move to Toronto.  I have to be strong, and keep a positive mind, and enjoy life wherever I am.

I just wanted to update my blog. I promise to post new drawings and long essays as soon as I can. Peace.

Entran y salen las penas.

Friday the 13^th I finally got set free from the hospital after 2 months of treatment. Now I’m grateful and i thank my parents for all the support. I lost inspiration to draw but I think I just need a break and relax and slowly start working on my art again and do a couple of shows downtown.  I’m keeping my mind positive and I’m looking towards the future.

“I like punk rock. I like girls with weird eyes. I like drugs. I like passion. I like things that are built well. I like innocence. I like and am grateful for the blue collar worker whose existence allows artists to not have to work at menial jobs. I like killing gluttony. I like playing my cards wrong. I like various styles of music. I like making fun of musicians whom I feel plagiarize or offend music as art by exploiting their embarrassingly pathetic versions of their work. I like to write poetry. I like to ignore others’ poetry. I like vinyl. I like nature and animals. I like to swim. I like to be with my friends. I like to be by myself. I like to feel guilty for being a white, American male.”

- Kurt Cobain, excerpt from his Journals.